Emotionally, well, not so good. I don't know what's brought it about. I suspect that it's just random fluctuation - there's nothing to account for it, as such. My new shrink - I seem to get them as they come by on rotation, since they're all young, look nervous, and last a few months - was worried that I seemed to have deteriorated on the higher dose of citalopram that I've been trying since Christmasish, but she wasn't quite sure what to try next. I tentatively suggested a month or so on escitalopram, since it has a better side-effect profile, and the side-effects had been rather more noticeably unpleasant since going up to 40mg/day of citalopram. She didn't say anything, but there was a definite "Um, never heard of it" look on her face...
As she started to look it up, I noticed that her desk copy of the BNF (British National Formulary) was dated 1998. Ye gods. There's a new edition of the BNF every six months, and for good reason. Because she was looking increasingly bewildered by not being able to find it, I had to point out to her that it wasn't licensed until a couple of years ago, and she needed a newer edition. Honestly, it felt so much like guiding a willing but slightly slow undergraduate.
I'm all for a balanced patient/practitioner relationship, but that session really was not it. Don't get me wrong - she didn't do anything bad, but I almost felt like asking to see her consultant, simply because I shouldn't have to feel that I know so much more than the person to whom I'm coming for advice and treatment.
Ah well. I have my escitalopram, and we'll see how it goes.
As to the making of stuff, I made coconut ice, because I like it and it's easy to do. This one's suitable for kids to make, because it doesn't use any heat or sharp stuff, and it's fun.
300g desiccated coconut
300g icing sugar
325g condensed milk
5ml vanilla extract
(optional) food colouring
Beat together the condensed milk, the vanilla and the sugar. Mix in the coconut, and knead until thoroughly incorporated.
Lightly grease an 8 inch baking tin. Divide the coconut mixture into portions, one more than the number of colourings you want. I used red colouring to make traditional pink and white, so halved the mixture. Colour the separate portions, and press down firmly in layers into the tin. Cover and chill for a few hours. Turn out of the tin, and cut into cubes. Leave the cubes to dry a little in the air, and then eat.