Muddle-headed Kay (mhw) wrote,
Muddle-headed Kay
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I'm getting frustrated with this.

Still no side effects; howver, still no good effects (apart from the one on the neurological pain in my legs, of which more later). Yes, early days yet, it can take a few weeks, but I'm stuck in this big swamp of nothingness and I'm not enjoying it at all. Get up? can't be bothered. Get dressed? can't be bothered. Eat? can't be bothered. Write? can't be bo... yes. You get the picture. I have a hefty dose of apatheia.

Actually, a step backwards, which isn't good. Remember when I had the utter total incapacity to fill in forms? Guess what: the counselling service has finally got off their collective arse — by sending me a form to fill in. Result? yep. You get that one too. Argh. Bless his socks, Jus got to it before I did, opened the envelope, did a "WTF are they playing at?" and called them to shout at them for it, before I even know that I had a form to fill in. It turns out that I don't have to fill very much of it in, and I can just skip all the questions that make me freeze up. I'll give it a shot, otherwise I shall call them and tell them why I can't. Bugger it all, they could have found out about this just by reading my medical notes. What do you want to bet they haven't done so?

You know what this feels like? Like I've been standing at a bus queue for hours and hours and hours. And I'm getting very cold and very tired and I'm not sure that I wouldn't rather step out in front of the bus than onto it.
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