I went to see the shrink this morning. Correction: Jus and I went to see the shrink this morning. I really didn't think I could make it on my own, knowing that I would be seeing a New Person (Dr Khan having finished his rotation there, and Dr Morby the team leader being far too Important to use on the likes of me).
Well, it was OK. Apart from discovering that Dr K had written the dosage of venlafaxine he'd prescribed incorrectly on my data sheet, that is. The new shrink, Dr Corea (I asked her name, but I haven't seen it written, and it sounds like "Korea" though she said it isn't spelled that way, so I'm guessing) seems good. A good listener, thoughtful, someone I can work with. I told her I still haven't had ANYTHING from Counselling Services apart from a completely paralysing multipage questionnaire which I filled in and returned late April/early May (see here), and she suggests I'm patient a little while longer. I have another appointment with her on the 29th of this month, and if I haven't got at least a notification of an initial appointment from CS by then I shall make it VERY VERY EVIDENT to her that someone had best pull their sodding finger out. The research paper that katherinedeane kindly sent me will, I think, prove to be persuasive about how much good CBT could be doing me, and could have been doing me all these months.
I told her about how it feels for me with the derealisation, and she nodded and said all the right things. In material terms, we agreed to try doubling my dose of venlafaxine and see if that helps at all. Worth a shot.
accomplished
katherinedeane kindly sent me will, I think, prove to be persuasive about how much good CBT could be doing me, and could have been doing me all these months.